19 10 06 ;
took baq results .
shant say how much i got .
im so FCUKING disappointed in MYSELF !I WAS FCUKING SHOCK TO SEE MY RESULT !i flunk my subjects ): hais . ireally dont wanto say abt all these anymore .exams jus make me feel like puking !if only i could turn baq time 'im still not able to accept the fact that i flunk THAT SUBJECT !FCUK !okays ;
whadtever ~
was crying ,
nobody seems to care ? -x
was even MORE UPSET .
went to toilet ,saw constance & lirong .lirong was inside the cubic .constances was really GOOD (:she comforted me (:ILOVEHER (:though i jus knw her this year ,it seems like i knw her longer than any others do .she held me in her embrace ,i was really touched -THANKS CONSTANCE (:hmmm .
then gladys came ,
i was crying still ,
didnt entertained her .
i was rather bad .
in a
FCUKING bad mood '
SORRY GLADYS !!i actually tsk-ed her accidentally ,
sorry ,
i didnt mean it (:
then went baq to class ,
darl msg-ed me ,
sort of quarrelled with her ):
im sorry but im really disappointed '
shall not talk abt WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN ME & DARL (:was rather upset then ):HMMM .
dear called me when im in class (:
chatted & blah ~
was rather touched by dear *
he came saying ,
'dont worry , everything will be fine -'
though it doesnt helped much , =x
i still appreciate him for that comforting words (:
his bbus came , he boarded
& he seemed tired (:
guess he wanted to slp ,
so we jus put down (:
then next was son !
LIM YANG ZHI is my BESTEST son i ever HAD (: he comforted me too (:
he msg-ed me
& ask me not to worry
cos i was grumbling -x
wahahas
son , i APPRECIATE you (:i hope i would get into same class as son too -
he's
SWEET (:hokays !followed by esther sister (:
she msg-ed me too .
she's sucha caring jie ?!
ILOVEHER -ever since we got into different sch ,we seemed to talk lesser & lesser ):luckilyy now we are baq to talking terms (:i appreciate all her comforts (:her comforts are the bestest among the best (:
then nth to do in class liaos ~
my baobei cousin called me (:
i was rather even touched !!
cann u imagine ?!whn u are feeling SO DOWN ,but all the ppl jus came pass by to drop u a call ?!hahas .
iloveher (:I HAVE PROMISED HER TO TON WITH HER !haha .
im forced to .
hahas =x
slacked in class ,
listen to mr kuan crap .
ah kuan act cute -x
hmmm .
went to cp to makan ,
dhen headed home .
cousin called ,
asking me to pey her ton & stuffs (:
dhen dear called me ,
asking whr am i
& stuff .
actually going out with him ,
but cant (:
sorry dear !
i made cousin wait on the other line for very long
dhen she dulan ,
she msg-ed dear ,
ask him to put dwn the fone
cos she wants to talk to me .
teehee (:
skipped the FCUKING redcross
cos my brother met with an accident .
lol
believe it or not luhs !
fcuking vincent toh jun jie !everytime only knw how to act big ?ah beng ah ?qi guar mai ?try me luhs ~went home .
still wasnt at a GOOD MOOD YET -
was thinking abt smth
dhen suddenly fell aslp =p
woke up
& its alrdy 5.30 ?!
shit !
im late !
i quickly get ready
& meet yunyu at cp
cos gotta go to bukit timah
for choir rehearsal for church dhis sunday (:
hmmm .
wasnt enthu at first ,
laoshi spoke to me ,
she said ,
'u are worshipping the
LORD ,
not other things '
she wants me to concentrate .
lol -.-
dhen went so crazy & enthu
haha
all thanks to dhis malay guy dunno cal whad luhs~
forgotten his name
wahahas .
smth like sharu ?
hahas .
headed home & blah ~
dear left me with many miss calls ,
called baq ,
he dulan
cos i nvr ans ,
dhen explained .
hahas .
nth happened (:
& we had our
SECRET CONVERSATION (:hmmm .
took mrt home .
saw elizabeth ,
lol
haha !
the bf shorter than her sia .
hahas !
oops =x
whadtever .
she ask her to be so xialan to me ?!
i dont give a DAMN okays (:
home-d (:THATS THE END OF TODAY LUHS ~20 10 06 lol .as usual .took baq paper ,crapped ,though was rather sad .asked mr kuan if could still take
chem & phy ; geo & ss ; add maths .
he was like ,
any classes cann take ,
dhen i was like ,
'phew ?!'
i hope i will get into 3c next yr please ?
hahas .
with faith ,
i feel i cann go 3c (:
hmmm .
played & stuffs .
had a great time with tiaraFOUR & son & ppl (:
miss derrick .
he didnt come for days .
hope he would come baq (:
sadd !
monday son & ppl getting canning ):
actually its today .
i jus pray hard that there wont be any canning
or the canning wont be pain (:
slacked & slept for the whole day in sch .
listened to mp3
& kena caught by mr kuan
but he didnt say anything (:
indeed he's really a GOOD TEACHER ! (:HE 's a damn cute teacher oso ,
i scolded mr wong fcuk
dhen he say
'tsk ! dont like that scold '
his reaction was so bloody hell cute luhs !after sch ,
went home immediately .
didnt go for redcross ,
tht fcukin vincent knw i have cousin's wedding to attend luhs ~
whadtever he wans luhs~
at least i informed him one week bfore hand ?!
lol !
& if i attend rc ,
its alrdy very gd ,
he shld like jus thank god !
i haven bame that the fcuking rc made me fail my subs okays !
cb .
redcross really sucks luhs ~
caused me to faill many subjects
cos of the FCUKING trainings held by the
FCUKING vincent toh EVERYDAY !ITS EVERYDAY OKAYS !its not once in a week hokays !
its
bloody everyday luhs !
i cursed REDCROSS in CVSS to C-O-L-L-A-P-S-E
darl & granny sent me home .
crapped -
was upset ,
cos darl & granny told me smth ):
nvm ,
nvr in my life i would expect that to happen again ):
hais .
i still felt darl & grace are so far away frm me ):hais .i jus wanna say ,whadtever u listen ,u wanto believe ,i seriously have nth to say .both hate me bfore ,whad to do ?we got baq tgt so closely but now ?getting further again ?i cant stop.put urself into my shoes ?feel how i felt (:understand me 'sunita darl was upset with mecos she said i got closer to grace nowadays ,well ,but me & grace are still not as close ?!i still felt she hates me , you knw ?hais -whadtever luhs ~grace ,everything is up to you to decide ,i nvr wanto lose sucha gd fren like u ,rmb ?u were the ONLY ONE who comforted me with words -i dont wanto see u drifting away frm me ,but if u insisted ,i have nothing to say .its ur choice .if u think im not gd enuff as a fren or u dont wanna get too close with me ,im fine with it .yes ,& now ,our friendship are also put to a test ,it depends on how we are going to get through it tgt .i cant say much cos we are both frm different religion .many times i told sunita ,that you are my hope , my life & my all ,i live to serve GOD& i always wanted to bring to church ,u came ,but u didnt receive ,i was sadd ,i blamed myself quietly inside ,i prayed that u would come dhis sunday ,cos i thought i could touch u with my performance ,i wouldnt have joined choir ,seriously its partly for u & partly u knw i love to sing .i have nth much to say ,though we are not very close ,i still do appreciate our friendship & u .i wanna get even closer to u !yes ,we used to have laughters along when we are out tgt ,but whad happened now ?!im speechless darling -reply to me ~hais ~sunita ,darl , we shared the most times tgt .we shared weels & sorrows .laughters & happiness .if jealousy is gonna break us up ,i think we are jus too fragil .& it means we arent strong at all .everytime when we are out , laughters & noises are everywhere ,but now ?it seems like we have no more laughters within .i guess every friendships have to come to an end ,but i really nvr wanna end mine & urs .its really a gift frm god ,& now our frienship is now put to a test ,it depends if we could get through it tgt ?perhaps through faith we cann ,but i dont think u would believe ?i appreciate u as much as i do .but it seems like ,we are no longer belong to the same mentality ,we no longer have the same spiritual thinking ?we no longer cann be as close like how we were in the past ?we are no longer as bonded anymore ,which makes me think,we couldnt sit through this friendship test tgt ):we nvr knw .but i dont wanto lose you .i dont whads ur thinking too ?reply to me ~anyways , yes ,im sad !life is really rather unfair ?!i could jus lose someone precious & gain a new friend but i would give up on everything for grace & sunita ,trust me (:& i have to tell dear ,thanks dear for being by my side ytd ,when im sadd ,u nvr failed to be there (:i promised i'll ton with you ,but give me time .i have to ask my parents .we will ton tgt with my babe cousins dey all yea (:loves -hey ppl ! i still gotta say ,dhis time round ,im gonna get HOD for ART again !i dont care !how could i get such GOOD MARKS for HOD ?!wahahas !i got HOD FOR ART for semester 3 (:& now , EOY ,its MINE again ! (:wishh me okays ! teehee !yes im greedy .but thats my hope (:
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thankew dear (: always , you are the one who were there to call me when im crying or when im down , i always believe thats jus coincidence but now , i think its fates & telepathy that brought us baq tgt like how we were in the past (:
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# ` A hug is a SMILE of the HEART that touches us through the embrace of caring arms 
# ` bcos of you , i have a reason to smile , to dream , to be happy . & you really mean a lot to me -